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More bitching and moaning...

If it wasn't for people on the other side of the planet and IM, I'd be completely stir crazy (or, at least more stir crazy than I already am). Other than while I'm working--which, is now almost never--I don't have much social contact anymore. I foolishly moved to a dank, sunlight-deprived basement in a Polish ghetto on the Bumble-fuck Egypt far NW side of Chicago where I only know 3 people (they live in my building), I can't speak more than 10 words in Polish (my three friends either interpret for me or sometimes I can get by speaking "Tarzan"), I'm very far from anyplace I want to be and my car died right after I moved here.

Since I moved here, the only person who's ever traveled across town to visit me has been my ex-girlfriend and that's wearing out. She wouldn't even go with me to the hospital or visit me there, because it takes her forever to get out this far. She doesn't drive. My brothers have never even come over and they're both less than thirty miles away, even though I've gone to see them.

Furthermore, my 3 ton work van only gets 12 mpg and it literally takes at least an hour to get anywhere I want to be on public trans--usually more like 2 or three. Plus, my sciatica makes it so I can't ride more than about five miles on my bicycle without really hurting my back to the point where it takes days to recover.

I can't remember ever being more unhappy or uncomfortable in my whole life. That includes back in 1992, when I was a crack-headed drunk with the shakes, hanging out behind a liquor store with the other gutter people, praying for 7am to finally arrive so I could get some cheap vodka and kick down. I think there's a Gypsy curse on my family. Their lives aren't any picnic, either. But I'd trade problems with them or any of my friends five fold, right now. My rent is only $520 a month and I don't even know if I'm going to make even that by the first. Again, I'm just pouring my guts out. I couldn't drink, even if I want to. I have a hard enough time just getting food into me.

Unlike everyone I know, my food bills have actually gone down. I'd prolly be cold all the time, accept one of my meds gives me extreme hot flashes. I'm sorry to be such a downer all the time. I've kinda used up all my friends' "listen to Andy bitch and moan" quotas. I'm sure yours has just about been reached, if it hasn't already. The servers must be down in Indonesia, because the friends I have there all dropped off line at the same time and haven't gotten back up since about 3am. So, I'm sitting here at dawn, not loving life, at the moment. It sucks to be tired and not be able to sleep. Really.

Back

My journal is now back from hiatus. My allergies are absolutely killing me, along with my asthma, so I just shut down for a while. I want to go see (or really hear) Cheap Trick at Ravinia tonight, but I'm still not feeling so hot, so there's a small chance that I'll pass--I dunno. I'm s'posed to meet up with two beautiful girls...tough call.

If anyone still bothers to look at this blog, have a wonderfull Labor Day!

Chicago weather sucks BIGTIME.

I am so f-ing TIRED!!!

I'm blessed with the pleasure of working outside in this Chicago schvitz. It's so draining that I'm useless for hours and sometimes days after only 4-5 hours. On the bright side, I have a pigeon update; Kevin Smith will be in Chicago this week; I'm helping a frail, elderly woman get through this heinous hotspell...

So, to continue, when I work outside, I carry a lot of heavy, filthy recycleble auto parts from anywhere between 10 and 150 feet, sometimes up or down stairs, to get them to my truck. There is a lot of dust involved with this from rust, sanded paint, soot and brake pads. By the time I'm done for the day, because of all of my perspiration, I look like this:


It takes even more time and energy to clean up to this point:


so, I can sit down cool off and eat. Chicago weather sucks BIGTIME.


That pigeon that I helped is doing pretty well. I designed her splint to fall off after it got wet enough (she stands in the bird bath when she drinks) and it worked like a charm. She wore it for about a week and then pulled it off. She still limps a little, but considering the fact that she couldn't even stand up, when I found her, I figure I did pretty well.

On top of that, she found a mate.


Pigeons mate for life, so I see them together, a lot.

Today, they were eating moistened dog food on my roof--pigeons love that stuff. You can see her next to the waterer--although she's very dark--and her mate is directly behind her.



Those light spots all over the pigeons are bits of wet dog food. They pick up a chunk and shake their heads to break off a little piece. It looks funny when they're all doing it at the same time.

Kevin Smith is coming into town to be a guest critic on Ebert & Roeper. Then he'll be at Wizard Con Chicago, which starts July 3rd. Check out the guests who'll be signing autographs and scroll down to the "Autograph Area" listing. It must really suck to be a has-been. I mean, what does Joyce Dewitt have to do with wizards? My guess is that nerds used to fantasize about her on Three's Company, because she seemed remotely more obtainable than Suzanne Sommers or her replacement bimbos.

Finally, I gave an elderly woman my old "backup" air conditioner. She's one of those people that thinks a fan would be sufficient, but she was starting to realize that it wouldn't be. So, I installed it for her. Old people who sit alone in the intense heat tend to die and stuff. I wish I could do more. I'm just glad she's cool, now. I'm also glad my Grandma has AC, as well.

Chicago weather sucks BIGTIME.

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Yesterday, I went with little_octagon and willowpea to see Clerks II. Naturally, it rocked! I haven't laughed that hard in a while. I love how Kevin Smith can skillfully combine "thinking" humor with "toilet" humor. Now, I also have a "secret girlfriend."
Sorry, Terry.


Also, I had one those extremely good/bad weeks. Three of my koi jumped out of my fountain--they're with God, now. The remaining fish in the fountain started beating up on my water lettuce, so I moved the plants to the smaller of my two water gardens.

 It turns out that they laid eggs on the water lettuce and five days after I moved the plants, about twenty baby fish hatched.

I realized I still hadn't renewed the license plates on my car and van, yet and they expire in a week.

I found a pigeon with a broken foot, and splinted it, successfully.



Released two days later and saw it the next the next day (today), eating with it's flock, outside my window.


 I bought a new air conditioner for $80, cuz my old one broke down.


I got laid (but, GOOD) on my birthday.
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I turned 44 years old/young/middle-aged/lame.

I hurt my right foot and I don't know how.
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And I watched some really great movies.

Take the "World's Smallest Political Quiz!"

Take the World's Smallest Political Quiz!



BTW, I'm a Centrist, or Moderate leaning towards Libertarian and Liberal.

Kudos to April Hunter, for sharing this little gem!

Superman

I didn't like Superman Returns that much. I thought the acting, besides Lois' and Jimmy's, was excellent and the action scenes were great. I thought the idea of him leaving for 5 yrs and returning was great.

However, I thought they could've done way better with the story and they should've cut out the whole Lois + White's nephew thing. It would've kept the movie from dragging, IMO.

But, I still think it's worth a look in a quality big screen theater. I saw a matinee for $6.50, so I'm glad I went, but didn't pay full price.